Monday, January 26, 2009
is it a sin to murder oneself ?is it un filial to leave before my parents ?
is it betrayal to leave my boy/frens/teachers/everyone i know without even telling them ?
is it cowardliness to dump all troubles n leave this place ?
am i giving up on my own destiny to succeed ?
is this how the way it should end ?
is it that HIM has forsaken me ? or HIm is only testing me ?
should i accept my own fate or should i fight against it ?
will peace come after all that ?
how i hate to see people complaining on how old fashion their stuffs are ...
or how their family sucks because both their parents do not buy a particular thing for them ...
wake up yall damm idea !!
be contended yall spoil brats !!
only interested in you n yourself ..
there are still damm lots of people who cannot carry on with their lives cos they do not even have $1 to spent ..
damm this kids !!
always trying to buy the new n latest model of everything ...
come on if i put u in one of the struggling countries/ family for a year ....
i doubt you will ever live ...
fcuk !!!!@#@
why am i the one that is facing all these things ??
seriously !!!
when one goes another comes ..
n the problem seems to be getting bigger n bigger ...
oh ya i forget ...
i cant control external stuffs ...
but those fcuking external stuffs is in the way of my studies/attitude/positivity...
damm it ..
how am i suppose to be positive ??
try standing in my shoe and see how far yall can go ...
oh ya ...
i forget ...
yall are calling me to shut up n stop being so troublematic person ,..
come on like i want to /??
why would i want to be a troublematic person ??
i am not a sadist anyway ...
not now not once n nt forever -.-
will my family get past thru this ??
i hope so ...
if not i will be here thrashing out my damm fcuking feelings ..
haiz ...
hope everything was like before ..
watever ..
watever i say will not change the present anyway ...
just haveta leave with this damm fcuking life