Thursday, February 19, 2009
gotten back my chem focus test ...god it suck ...
altho i passed but ...
its one of the worst i ever scored ...
20/40 ???
whereby 5 marks were lost to carelessness ...
shit !!!!
was controlling my emotions from school till now ...
today another irritating happen ...
early in the morning ..
found out that my dad's car was being towed away ...
so i was forced to take the bus to school ..
damm it suckk ...
by the time i reached school it totally pissed me off ...
wat more the security guard shouted at me for not tucking n my pe shirt ..
which i did not follow as i was in total anger ...
the security guard shouted so loudly that everybody was starring at me ...
lols
dammm bloody idiot la ..
first i was totally pissed by he fact that i have to walk to school ...
than the stupid security guard come and yell t me for no reason ...
plus he did not do it politely ...
he shouted the first second he saw me ..
crap la ....
cant he at least be a little more polite and not be so crude and unrefined ??
damm ...
bloody school la ...
but today i saw on free show ...
jasmin and michael ..
best show i ever watched lols lols lols ...
even madam chan n miss chiam were laughing la ...
lolslols ...
best !!!
gtg needa study physics ...
tml is physics focus test ...
gotta do better than my last one !!!
love
sze ling:)
its not right ..
its not right to allow oneself to be in a world of deception ...
to try loving someone which done lots of harm ....
always thought that someone will change but didn't...
always praying for some kind of miracle but it did not come true ...
always hoping that things to get better but it seems impossible ...
the mind keeps thinking i had enough ..
but my heart keeps telling me don't give up ...
who are we to be questioning and wondering what is what !!
sometimes i wanna run away ,...
ain't got the Patience for the pain ...
but i cant ...
i have to continue living in the world of deception ...
through it all i have to stand up ..
just because i go thru it ...
i have to control it !!!
i have to turn the tables aroud in order to survive ....
i need to ...
everything will be alright ...
i will get better thru what ever things that is charging towards me