tired tied tied &tired
Saturday, February 7, 2009
am creastfallen right now ...don't know whether i can take on the pressure anymore ...
had band yesterday . and my playing sucks ...
how to obtain a silver ?? i wonder ............
the band standard ...
i dunno what to say at all ...
had chinese focus test ...
it took a toll on me ...
dun understand a single shit la ...
dun understand the meaning lei ...
dunno what about services de ...
now it comes to math ...
simple differentiation n i am having so much problems ...
math ? am i suppose not to know ?
how can i not know it ? oh shit i am getting dumber every sec ...
really dunno whether i can really handle everything that is coming towards me ...
am struggling inside !! like nobody f$#king business ....
searching for peace ...
lord help me ...
just like you had helped me before ...
growing tired every sec ,,,
really want to take a long sleep and never wake up ....
how is it that i do not have peace ...
am i that unworthy to even reach the level of peace ??
what wrong had i done to suffer such cruel facts of life ...?
think i am goging to fail miserably in life ...
how i just wish for everyting to go away ....
n teachers stop going against me ...
i really am tired ..
gonna try on a new approach ...
i learnt to never be kind or to tolerate anyone that is tormenting me ...
yes ... tormenting is the exact right word ...
will just shut up foe the whole year and just surround myself with my small social circle of friends ...
sorry teachers but no more ... will i fight or be kind ...
what kind of shitty feeling am i experiencing right now .?
sorry friends ..
my tolerance level this few days had been real bad ...
so i really request for you guys to give in to me more or stay away from me ...
best is yall stay away from me so u do not need to suffer too ..
just today and i flare up at my family ...
my tolerance level is getting way out of hand ...
way not me !!
its not my style ...
just dunno why i feel irritated all the time ..
so unethical of me ...
sooo not me ...
but wanna thank my boy for giving in to me all the time ...
although it has not been very long ...
he really understood me and although sometimes my mood is damm bad ...
he will be there and just be by my side ...
k ending here ,,,
sisters & brothers ...
i hope you will help me by praying for me ...
pray for my strenght n faith ...
really nid it to carry on with my sucky life ,,,
thank you
love
sze ling :)
gg to griff house with my small social circles of frens ....
they will help me wind myself down
if any of you guys are laughing or disgusted by my post ...
shut the f#$k up alright ?
you guysshould be encouraging me rather than doing wat you are doing ...
un really wanna noe you anyway ,,,,
obviously you guys are not fit to be my friends ...
get lost !!