Tuesday, March 31, 2009
having the most crucial day of my life .....i am now where everybody know itr as- the crossroad
it is where one wrong step that i make will affect the people around me and me, myself .....
sorry guys if i had been rude to you these few days ....
just bare with it for awhile .....
i will come to my senses soon .........
thanks for tolerating all my rubbish .....
i really am truly sorry .......
wanna control the emotions that are held within me ,......
i really want to but its difficult ......
some times when i am so f-up about stuffs ..
i completely forgotten i still have to think about other people's feelings .......
sorry ......
its been hard on me for these few days .....
really really really feeling apologetic .....
sometimes i thought to myself whether are all this things worth persevering ....
what will i get at the end product ??
then i thought of giving up ......
blaming everyone else for the misery .......
but when i stop all the commotion and i look back ........
when i put myself in other people shoes ......
wow ! i am being selfish .....
how many times must my actions cause someone to get hurt ?
remorseful-ness is filled in every inch of my soul ......
wonder whether i should go into solitude .......
stop all my social network just for awhile .....
just to get back what i achieved last time .....
peace ! .....
solitary solitary solitary solitary ....................................................................................
love
sze ling :)