Saturday, April 4, 2009
wasn't feeling very good since yesterday ....(not sick... rather its inside my heart)the math test really took a toll on me ....
now i don't even have the feeling to wanna succeed ....
like i said ....
other stuff i can fail but not math ,....
i can't handle it ....
been faking a smile to everybody since yesterday ....
didn't wanna talk alot today ....
my sadness is growing stronger and stronger every single minute ....
to add on to that ...
my parents isn't making me feel any better ....
i am so hurt by them until the point that i just wish that they will go out of the house and don't come back ....
without them ...
the house will be more peaceful and quiet ...
that's what i need now ,...
today is my last band performance....
was elated that i finally am out of band politics ...
however i was sad that i am leaving music ...
which is one of the passion in my life ....
don't know how will i get on with my life without music ....
my juniors are also another factor which i will miss ...
many of them were so sweet today ....
gave me notes and presents to make me remember them ....
some even say some stuffs that every senior would definitely wanna hear ...
' thank you senior for everything that you have done ... the band will not be what it is without you ... will definitely miss you alot ''
the words which came out from many of the juniors really touched me alot ....
thanks guys ...
work hard for the next syf ya ???
go for it !!
get the gold back ....
this senior will always be right behind you guys !!!
love
sze ling:)
will i ever get back to my normal self genuinely ...
or do i still have to fake my cheerfulness everyday ???
this question has been haunting me since THAT DAY !\
falling faster ...
barely breathing ...
give me something to believe in .....
i am half the gal i thought i will be
Labels: i am being haunted by my once pleasant dream.