Sunday, October 4, 2009
many things happened during this past week ...guess i really reached my breaking point ....
this week ...
every happiness inside of me was literally engulfed by sadness ......
but i guess this is part of life .....
my results are out ...
although i am quite please with the results my parents are not ...
i got 8/38 for class position and 17/142 for my level position .....
how i wish that i am living my life to fulfil my own expectations and not others .....
the truth is that everyone is living in each other's expectation ....
what happen to '' follow you're heart and choose the path you wanna walk'' ?
i realised that life is very vulnearable .....
many times we tend to take things for granted .....
for example .......
(for christians)
we pray only when we are in need ....
how come we don't pray to thank god ?
we still blame god for the wrongs in our lives ....
how will god feel ?
but if we were to take a step back ...
we will realise how god has bless us in many ways .....
even if there is nothing good that is happening in a particular day ...
its a blessing from god that we did not face any tribulation or struggles ...
its the same as no bad news is good news ...
but no ....
we blame god for not letting the happy stuffs come to us ...
the thing is god cant work miracles if we just pray ....
god have to work through us ...
which means we have to take the first step in order for god to make miracles ....
faith and strength is all that matters ....
sometimes life gets so tired and meaningless that i just don't wanna carry on ....
however who am i to choose whether to live or die ?
there are people out there who are diagnosed with cancer or organ failures .....
they don't have a choice to live ...
its god's plan whether they can make it or not ...
yet many of them are so much stronger than me .....
they remain strong to ease the minds of people that are around them ......
they are the true heros of lives .......
although they may die of these illness ...
but theit lives will impact many of us ....
we will learn to gain the courage that they have to move on with our lives .....
we will forever remember what they go through and how they deal with it
they are the true spiritual leaders ........
they have taught me that nothing in this world is too big for a problem ....
no matter what there will always be a way out if we have faith and the courage to move on with our lives ......
love
sze ling :)
this post is dedicated to my very own spiritual teacher ...
although i did not meet you in person ....
my stand in life will forever be different because of you ....
thank you ...
and god bless you ....